Salt in an open wounD

Another silence in my blog.
I had hard times to tune myself into the right mood to blog, even now it’s the same but I have no idea why I’m posting this post. No lah, hehe.
I think I wanna make updates like twice in a week. Not sure if I manage to do so. But, em, let’s try!
Well, what drives me was because I feel so disconnected.
At certain point in life, I just feel like I wanna disappear from my friends and those who know me somewhere in my own world.
But at the same time I want people to know what I’m going through, what I have in mind, what am I feeling, what am I hiding inside…

Life is full of decisions and confusion.
I've come to this conclusion after the talking and rave with my friends,
about who’s lucky
about who lives in "the land of fortune"
about school and college…
School makes you a cowardly idiot?!
What’s the difference between those who start looking for working experience after high school and a college degree?

And I’ve discussed with my family bout what my next steps are after STPM…
They suggested that I should get my butt out of the house and go search for part-time job while waiting for my offer letter.
I’ve been staying at home for months, waiting for offer letter to call on my name in the mailbox.
And few weeks ago I did receive a letter, and was only enlisted as substitute…=.=
I did search and found part-time jobs, but in the end my parents turn it down…
Because most part-time jobs with higher pay are time-consuming…
in that they need me as a full-time housedaughter…XD

Darkness is what I see every way I go.
Hmm, I have been thinking about how much easier it is for me to be positive and optimistic for others--Yet in my own situation, it's often just melancholy.

I feel horrible!
And my result sucks!
I love school but I hate study!
I go to school like anyone else does; I get muddled up in school work just like anyone and just like anyone I get bored. Some people might like to think that boredom is just something that they feel alone, sorry to burst your bubble but the world is as bored as you are…
Now, I'm officially no more a student of a school.
I now have a completely new life.
Uni, new friends, new environment(coming soon-next month)
The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and a leaky tire.
Whatever!

It's late, bye for now!

Good night everyone!

My kitty, is fast asleep...hoho..

Don’t mess with her…. she wants to sleep with lights off…okay~
Adios!